Wednesday's Quote Of The Day

"OH MY GOD, is that a black card?" I turned around and replied,"why yes, but I prefer the term African American Express" - Kanye West

*Blank Stare*

Now that the New Year is about to come in are people starting to get all mushy thinking about the past, looking to mend things that have been broken or something?  I was having a BBM convo with "her" and my phone rings. I didn't think twice, I just answered and the voice I heard made me completely silent.... 


Me: Who Is this?
Her: Your late Christmas present
Me: *Silent Blank Stare*


Exactly a year ago I was stuck in a horrible life involved with her. Why the fuck does she still have my #? I have chomped her off previously for contacting me and acting as if we are best of friends and everything is kool. Its funny how people take advantage of you when you care and they don't give fuck, as soon as the well runs dry muthafuckas start seeing shit. Anyway, I despise her and I  wanted to go off on her but I'm trying not to live in the past anymore. It only adds to my emotional basketcase-ness LOL.  I let her talk, mostly to herself, silent treatment is the way to go! I think she got the message but I know she will call again cause I have wrote her off before. *sigh* I'm getting my # changed very soon so I will loose that headache myself. 


P.S. OH IF I DON'T BLOG AGAIN, BEFORE JAN 1ST

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2010: Stronger With Every Tear

I haven't been in much of a blogging mood recently. Its the holidays and for the 1st time in 4yrs, I have been single. I'm wishing for the new year to come so I won't have to deal with all the holiday cheer that seems to surround me. It's December 26th and it has finally come to an end. I look forward to bringing in the new year, thank God I'm not in the place I was last year. Start your year off wrong, and that is how I started 2009, and it will be how you spend the year. I'm a living will and testament because my yr was horrible and I dealt with some of the toughest things in my life. I'm hoping to make 2010 a better year for myself, things started looking up for  me in October and they are continuously getting better. Now the only thing I have to deal with is my emotions and believe me, that is no walk in the park. Mary J. Blige named her CD Stronger With Every Tear and I'm holding her to that.

Quote of The Day: Wednesday

...tell that girl like Doritos thats Nacho Cheese... - Kanye Lollipop Remix

Song Of The Day: Natasha Bedingfield Unwritten

This song has such a postive message that lets anyone know that if there is something you want in life, YOU have to make it happen.

"Oh, she just Hatin"... Is it REALLY HATIN??

Every time someone tells you the truth, doesn't mean they are hating! The truth is the truth! Know the difference! Im sick of people hiding behind this word "HATER". Don't get it twisted there are hater's out there but not everyone who says something that you don't like or against you or the next person is a hater. Just cause someone call her new "Gucci" bag fake, don't mean they hatin, hell if the muthafucka is fake, ITS FAKE! There is a thin line but damn it, get it together. Next time you get ready to call someone a hater, really think about it, is it hating or just the damn TRUTH!

So You Mad?

I don't understand why people are so easily offended when they ask for you to give them your honest opinion about something, If you don't want to know the truth, then don't ASK!

 Lastnight I received a txt from a chick I went on a date with but I wasn't feeling her like that. This is how it went.

RandomChick: ? What is it about me that turns you off? Im just wondering so I can know how to improve myself for my miss right, please be honest.
Me: There is nothing wrong with you, just not my type ma.
RandomChick: I wasn't saying like for you, but its good, im out.
Me: "Question What about me turns YOU off? Im just wondering....." This is what you said to me, and i'll say again, there is noyhing wrong with you...
RandomChick: Of course there was no reply!

What happened here? I answered her question honestly! She wanted to know how to improve herself for her "miss right" What I didn't like about her was her height, she is too short for me and she had a low hair cut like a guy. Now she can grow her hair back, but she can't change her height soooo, that makes her NOT MY TYPE, but she could be perfect for the next chick.

Now I would like to address the statement "so i can improve myself for my miss right". Let me tell you, this is me love it or leave it. Now I understand when you are in a relationship with someone there might be certain things that you might need to change to make things work with you and your significant other but if we need to have that conversation to start out, then it obviously don't need to start.

But who am I? Im just a 23yo lesbian, looking for love and happiness......

Flashback: What If pt2

FUCKED UP

New Me: Making Changes before 2010

          

World AIDS Day

World AIDS Day was established in 1988 by The World Health Organization. It’s a little controversial but I think its a good day because we don't think of AIDS daily nor do we try to prevent them. I’m not into statistic as I have stated before but AIDS is rampant in America and we are not doing anything to protect ourselves. We are irresponsible to say the least, I think we all have it in our minds that "oh that would never happen to me" but it’s happening to people everyday just like you or me. I do not want AIDS, I’m sure you don’t either. When I got tested I was so nervous and anxious while waiting for the results to come back. For those 4 days I though about all my previous sexual encounters and most of the encounters was not monogamous relationship. It reminds me of what an ex lover of mine says. "I can be my own hoe" Meaning, I don’t know who you are fucking, I will fuck with the people who I feel are clean and if they aren't, then my whoring got me fucked up, not yours. So, who were they fucking? As I opened the envelope my hands were damn near shaking, but the results made me the happiest person on earth. Since then, I have not been making foolish decisions. We all should think with our heads and stop letting our lower regions drive us to say "fuck it" and not use protection. Its really going to come down to the point for anyone to get in my pants, I am going to require your STD test result and within a month before we can knock boots. PLEASE PEOPLE GET TESTED!

People call me a feminist whenever I express sentiments that differentiate me from a doormat or a prostitute. --- Daria

Lady GaGa "I'LL FOLLOW YOU UNTIL YOU LOVE ME"

Lady GaGa has become my favorite performer. This chick is so EMO on stage and I love it! Born March 28, 1986 she barely slipped passed us Pisces, but she def has some of it in her. Her performance of Paparazzi on VH1 awards left me speechless. I was glued to the screen as she ended her performance with the blood and "hanging". So beautifully EMO, I only wish I could express myself the way she does. She is considered out there when it comes to her style and how she perform but me, they would lock me up in a psych ward because I don't have a stage to cover up my craziness. I loved her performance on the AMA's also, I would love to break a glass box and play a burning piano. This chick is awesome. I love her album but I have been slacking on actually following her as an artist, this will be changing. I think she is a free spirit, and I love how she gets down. Like when she made the comment about the Jonas Brothers and have them all at once. You gotta love this chick for her rebel, emo ways. Rock on Lady GaGa!