My Music: Song of the Day Kenny Lattimore For You

The Wedding Song
Today watching the music channel this song came on. Instantly I had flashbacks of weddings that I have attended. Its classic and such a beautiful song I see why people love having it played at their weddings. Finding the person you want to spend the rest of your life with standing in front of the alter all starry eyed. I assume its a magical moment. 

For you I'd make a promise of fidelity, now and for eternity

No one could replace this vow

For you I'd take your hand and heart and everything and add to them a

wedding ring

'Cause this life is no good alone, since we've become one you're all I know

And if this feeling should leave I'd die and here's why

All I am is for you

Barf!!!!  I believe in love but this song just keeps me in a fairytale... The verse above, hmmm really? "For you I'd make a promise of fidelity..." That line alone is, is... *something*. Maybe I'm just being bitter cause I haven't been so lucky in love but most marriages end in divorce anyway. I will tell you that the divorce rate is down though....guess why? Because of the recession! People have no choice but to stay together in loveless marriages. I would go quote stats but we all know its true. 


By all means, enjoy the song though, it is beautiful......

The Many Faces of Me

Flashback: What If

I remember when it was actually real and I felt that something was there. I loved being with her, I loved the way she made me feel. It was built on lies and deceit but that didn't mean it wasn't real, to me at least.. It was suppose to be only a fuck but I felt so much more. I had a secret though, one that would (and did) ruin it before it truly got started. It was a betrayal but it happened prior to us being together so I didn't have any loyalty to her. That didn't matter though whatever we could possibly have had was ruined. She was everything I wanted in a stud though, and its hard to explain but it was there in her. I remember the first time being with her, Feb 13th 2008, 11pm on into the wee hours of the morning, (yes I remember the day and time)my first Valentines present for the day. I've spent my time trying to get back to those moments "in the beginning" with her but it just seems as if it's not going to happen for many different reason but my feelings for her are real. I don't love her but I do care. Will she always be my What If?

She Is My Stud

She is my stud

Her touch makes me flood

Another can't make me feel the way she does

Not one time have I forgot how good it was

Every time I'm with her, I feel safe

Killing me softly with her sweet embrace

Inside me is where I want her to be

Another day without her; another day in heat

Do What You Say You Will Do

I am extremely frustrated right now. If I ask you to do something and you do not want to do it, simply say NO!  Why do people always agree to do things they don't want to? Is it to preserve a friendship or you just can't say no to just say people? I hope not to preserve a friendship cause really when you don't go through on the agreement the friendship is definitely out the window. Its a waste of my time! Do what you say you will do,after all; ITS YOUR WORD! Is that too much to ask??

My Music: Songs of the Day Leona Lewis' Bleeding Love & Better In Time

My Emo side is coming out with these songs....Who am I kidding? LOL My Emo self shows throughout this blog!! Anyway, I love Leona Lewis' two songs Bleeding Love and Better In Time.

Bleeding Love
When I first heard this song it helped me through one of the darkest and toughest times I was going through with my girlfriend at the time. Everything she said in this song was exactly how I was feeling. The video was on point too just in general. I love to watch it to this day. To have truly loved and lost really does feeling like you are bleeding from deep within. My favorite part in the song is below This is how i felt at the time, love at all cost. 

I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open

And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

Better In Time

Listening to 93.3 Kiss lately and they play this song alot. Once again I love this song, its what I have been dealing with lately. Learning to let go of the past and move on to a brighter future. Things have been hard but learning from my mistakes. Time is doing its healing job but it takes just that: TIME. My favorite part of this song is all of it. If I had to chose though this would be it

Since there's no more you and me

It's time I let you go so I can be free

And live my life how it should be 

No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you

Yes I will