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Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts

Monday, January 10, 2011

Does everyone cheat?

DISCLAIMER: THIS IS NOT ABOUT YOU, GET OVER YOURSELF

I'd like to think two people can be together and fulfill each other's needs wholly without stepping out. Everyday I'm seeing that this is not the case. I watch the people around me, men and women, cheat on their mates and not even care. Men come in the store and flirt with me and my coworkers, try to get numbers, offer dates and come in the very next day with the wife and kids. Women searching for a man that will treat her right and not cheat, soon as he comes along, she's out cheating on him while he's being the good man that she wanted. Married couples both cheating and when shit hits the fan, there are tears, but why? You were both cheating? I really would like to think people can be faithful but when I see so much stuff like this it makes me wonder. Don't get me wrong, there are a lot of positive relationships that I see too, more so people closer to me. The only reason I don't doubt their relationships is because I can see so much of it. I feel if you have to cheat on someone, you just don't need to be with them, they are not what you really want. People are so selfish these days that they would rather hurt someone than be truthful with themselves and let go of whatever benefits they are holding onto in that relationship. 

So, if I see you walking down the street with your mate, I'm gonna assume someone is cheating. Maybe I'm the twisted one for believing this but it's not my fault, I blame you.

Sunday, December 26, 2010

My Life, no Rainbow

I'm back, without the rainbow! This blog became like the story of the dating game for me. That dating game has come to an end and thank goodness, I don't think I could take anymore! I've met my love and its a he not a SHE. Thats kinda funny to me, if no one else. I haven't dated a guy in over 5yrs. Honestly, they just don't do it for me. I guess you can blame it on any guy that has treated me less than the queen I am in the past but I don't think on it to much. It's just is what it is.


My tiny hand holds his tiny heart, his big hands holds my big heart
I never really thought I would be in love again. Don't get me wrong, I love love but honestly I never thought anyone would meet my complete standards of what a mate should be, what a real relationship should truly be about. Two people coming together to make each other better, sharing their lives and being honest and open with each other. I think I've found that in him and I'm happy. He just might be the one. :) 

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Song Of The Day: David Guetta feat. Makeba If We Ever

I've been though it all in my love life and I'm sure I can't deal with anymore bullshit, my heart can only take some much. When I love, I give what is undoubtedly too much of myself, I love hard. I've made many terrible decisions and dealt with so much shit all in the name of "love". I'm scarred for life because of some of the experiences I've had, and vowed never to love again. I'm afraid of someone taking advantage of my open heart and destroying what has taken so long to heal. I can, now, go without dealing with pains from old wounds, and even though it still hurts, I'm better and stronger each day.

A few days ago I was given this song to listen to and I almost cried, (yeah, I'm very emotional like that) because the words touched me. Just when I thought I've heard the song to describe what I feel, something else comes along. The very 1st part of this song had my eyes full of tears.
I've been fragile for a long time
A big ol' hole inside my heart
And I was searching through the valley
Stumbled on love in the dark


Was afraid to try, but afraid to never know
What it feels like to be loved
Had a hill to climb
But the places we could go
Oh, I gotta know

I've found myself falling again, somehow. I kinda know how, but then again, I don't.  I'm afraid of love but I'm also afraid if I don't take a chance on what I'm feeling, I could loose out on something that could be wonderful. Anyway, enough of my #emo spill. Here's the song, listen, enjoy.




Friday, May 14, 2010

Song of the Day: Alicia Keys f. Drake I'm Ready

This song describes everything I am currently feeling. I have been jamming to the Alicia Key’s new cd, The Element of Freedom for a minute now and I have always loved this song. She was coming straight from the heart with this one, the lyrics are beautiful and she sings it with so much passion. Just recently this song has begun to mean something more to me.

After looking into it, comes to find out Drake wrote it. *Blankstare* Does he really have this much talent? Sure does seem like it. That song makes [you] feel like he looked into [your] heart and wrote what he saw, not to mention A.Key’s sings it like she’s singing from [your] heart as well.


I was wondering maybe
Could I make you my baby
If we do the unthinkable would it make us look crazy
Or would it be so beautiful….

This is my personal favorite part of the song. I’m stuck right there and I want to know the answer. I think I know, but I want to be sure. I’m not one for being in love with love, I’ve seen it, think I have lived it a couple times, but I don’t plan on living it anymore. I want something real and true for a change.


Statuses are going up everywhere; lovers are quoting the song with one simple line. Every lovers question maybe different, but the answer seems to be the same.... “If you ask me I’m Ready”

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Happy St. Valentine's Day

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! All my love goes to my little one. Best Valentine, Always and Forever

Saturday, December 26, 2009

2010: Stronger With Every Tear

I haven't been in much of a blogging mood recently. Its the holidays and for the 1st time in 4yrs, I have been single. I'm wishing for the new year to come so I won't have to deal with all the holiday cheer that seems to surround me. It's December 26th and it has finally come to an end. I look forward to bringing in the new year, thank God I'm not in the place I was last year. Start your year off wrong, and that is how I started 2009, and it will be how you spend the year. I'm a living will and testament because my yr was horrible and I dealt with some of the toughest things in my life. I'm hoping to make 2010 a better year for myself, things started looking up for  me in October and they are continuously getting better. Now the only thing I have to deal with is my emotions and believe me, that is no walk in the park. Mary J. Blige named her CD Stronger With Every Tear and I'm holding her to that.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Thursday's Quote of the Day

"...It is better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all." - Alfred Lord Tennyson

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Wednesday's Quote Of The Day

"I became a lesbian because of women, because women are beautiful, strong and compassionate." - Rita Mae Brown

Monday, November 16, 2009

My Love

Can I be the only one you love?
Our life together so special, sent from above
U are the light in my life
Remembering our love, wishing you were my wife
Today goes by, another day without you here
No one else can take away all my fear
Eternity without you I cannot bare
You are my only true love, I wish you were there

Day in day out you are on my mind
Everyday I wish to turn back the hands of time
Now I wish to wake up to your beautiful face
I now wish for your loving embrace
Sometimes I cry myself to sleep
Enduring the pain, yes it makes me weep


Sometimes I try to smile through the pain
My life without you seems in vain
In the end it has been a lesson learned
Today my heart still yearns
Hoping you will see this love we've earned

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Rihanna & Chris Brown

With the new release of Chris Brown's song "Crawl" and Rihanna's interview with Diane Sawyer, decided to weigh in on the both of them.

Rihanna

 Its sad that she had to go through what she endured and violence is never he key but we were not there. I believe her lil feisty ass was not just a helpless victim. No she didn't deserve her ass wooping but sometimes men can only take so much (hits frm women that is). Then they...Snap. I don't know why she waited so long to "speak on it" some say because her album is coming out but I don't think that kind of publicity will help sell her album. I love Rihanna and would buy her music regardless. She has been acting a lil strange out and about since the incident. What I believe though is that the girl was in love, beat or not, it takes strange things to get over relationships where the love is true and real. What can I say though? She is such a beautiful girl with her own style flair and funk. I love her accent and she is just sexy period.

Chris Brown


Ole' Chris, he has had it rough since he snapped and beat Rihanna's ass. I believe he had a responsibility as a celebrity to apologize for his behavior but one time was enough! I truly believe he was sorry for his actions and I wont say he is young and all that other crap. He was wrong but we all make mistakes. With all the negative publicity this has brought him, he really should have learned his lesson. Now it seems as if he is love sick with this new song Crawl. The lyrics are beautiful and its clear its directed at Rihanna Anyway, I don't like the look with the glasses anymore than than the pink chef coat or the blue bow tie. The best songs are definely about true experiences in peoples lives, we feel their pain more and know its real. He really loves the girl thats my opinion.






Saturday, November 14, 2009

My Music: Song of the Day Kenny Lattimore For You

The Wedding Song
Today watching the music channel this song came on. Instantly I had flashbacks of weddings that I have attended. Its classic and such a beautiful song I see why people love having it played at their weddings. Finding the person you want to spend the rest of your life with standing in front of the alter all starry eyed. I assume its a magical moment. 

For you I'd make a promise of fidelity, now and for eternity
No one could replace this vow
For you I'd take your hand and heart and everything and add to them a
wedding ring
'Cause this life is no good alone, since we've become one you're all I know
And if this feeling should leave I'd die and here's why
All I am is for you

Barf!!!!  I believe in love but this song just keeps me in a fairytale... The verse above, hmmm really? "For you I'd make a promise of fidelity..." That line alone is, is... *something*. Maybe I'm just being bitter cause I haven't been so lucky in love but most marriages end in divorce anyway. I will tell you that the divorce rate is down though....guess why? Because of the recession! People have no choice but to stay together in loveless marriages. I would go quote stats but we all know its true. 


By all means, enjoy the song though, it is beautiful......

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

She Is My Stud

She is my stud
Her touch makes me flood
Another can't make me feel the way she does
Not one time have I forgot how good it was
Every time I'm with her, I feel safe
Killing me softly with her sweet embrace
Inside me is where I want her to be
Another day without her; another day in heat

Sunday, November 8, 2009

My Music: Songs of the Day Leona Lewis' Bleeding Love & Better In Time

My Emo side is coming out with these songs....Who am I kidding? LOL My Emo self shows throughout this blog!! Anyway, I love Leona Lewis' two songs Bleeding Love and Better In Time.

Bleeding Love
When I first heard this song it helped me through one of the darkest and toughest times I was going through with my girlfriend at the time. Everything she said in this song was exactly how I was feeling. The video was on point too just in general. I love to watch it to this day. To have truly loved and lost really does feeling like you are bleeding from deep within. My favorite part in the song is below This is how i felt at the time, love at all cost. 
I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you



They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing


You cut me open
And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love







Better In Time
Listening to 93.3 Kiss lately and they play this song alot. Once again I love this song, its what I have been dealing with lately. Learning to let go of the past and move on to a brighter future. Things have been hard but learning from my mistakes. Time is doing its healing job but it takes just that: TIME. My favorite part of this song is all of it. If I had to chose though this would be it


Since there's no more you and me



It's time I let you go so I can be free



And live my life how it should be 
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will






Thursday, November 5, 2009

To caress her & make her moan in itself is a turn one


Her body speaks to me as her flower unfolds 


Lips to lips so soft she feels


The taste of her so sticky and sweet


Her lava erupts from the passion and heat


Nothing sweeter than the river that flows


The passion of the kiss reach deep in her soulsexy Pictures, Images and Photos   

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

My Music: Beyonce as Etta James "I'd Rather Go Blind"

We all know Beyonce is not the best actress in the world but in Cadillac Records she did exceptionally well in the role of Etta James. Being in the music industry im sure she was able to put the more believable spin on her performance. I feel in love with the song I'd Rather Go Blind and the scene to go along with it in the move. No, I haven't listened to the Etta James version and I give her all the credit due for the song but I didn't grown up during her era and this was my first time hearing it. I remember turning the part back over and over again. I can relate to the words in the song now, but then I just love the emotion Beyonce was able to put behind the song. I felt the love she had for him and I was put right there in the moment with her. Watch.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Movie Title of My Life: Pursuit Of Happiness

Love and Success
Im pretty sure everyone wants to be happy in life, but what really makes one happy? We all have an idea of what would make us happy, but do we really know if that idea of happiness is true? I will go ahead and be honest, I am a helpless romantic. I believe in love at all cost. Why? I'm not sure I haven't had the best luck with love but i feel that love makes things better. As far as success, at 23 yrs old, I don't think I am doing to bad for myself. No I dont have what I want in life, but who does at my age? I don't want anything handed to me in life either. Success in life has to be he most fulfilling experience. With success comes money but what good is money? You can't buy love so money is no good without genuine love. I want someone who will love me now, struggle with me now, and gain success with me. This is my pursuit of happiness.

Monday, October 26, 2009

I see colors.. ROYGBIV

Did I choose to be with her or is it genetics? Early on I would have said it was a choice, but now I cant be so sure. My brother likes boys, I like girls, same parents. That tells me that there is more to it than a choice that I made. I was 19 when I was first with a female but I remember glancing at females inappropriately since I was about 7. I never thought I was a Lesbian just though it was normal. I never thought I would go down that road but I'm open minded and a free spirit. I have a moto: I will try almost anything once, if I like it I continue to do it, if not then I can always stop. I have lived by that my entire life and it hasn't done me wrong so far. With that being said, it was no big deal for me to turn to a woman, it only took alot of alcohol for the night. I never regretted my decision and I cant see myself without women. I prefer being with a woman sexually because it's enlightening and passionate. I love the way she explores my body, and I love to explore her body. I love to feel her body against mine, the many ways to please, the hours of passion. There is nothing that matches this feeling and its one I'm not willing to give up. Men have nothing to do with my decision. People like to say, "what, men were not treating you right?". Let me clear up that ridiculous excuse for being a lesbian. If that is the case I wouldn't be a lesbian or straight I'd be celibate. Trust, love, and commitment are 3 words that are universal in relationships, period. So whether its heterosexual or homosexual relations you are having, those 3 words are important, they either make or break the relationship.