My Journey: Moving Back

I can't believe it has been almost a year! I remember when I first moved into my own aparment, how afraid I was of being lonely. This NEVER happend, I love having my apartment to myself, its quite a big space and I can walk around in the nude if and when I please! I now know that I don't need someone else with me to make me feel whole, actually, being alone can be theraputic. I learned so much about myself and what I can accomplish. I've even been playing around in the kitchen cooking, (this has to do more with the boyfriend, than me being on my own) and I'm pretty good at it.

In 30 days I will be leaving my little santuary.  I will be moving back in with the loving family that took me in as a stray 15 months ago. I may be moving back, but I'm moving back to move foward in life. Moving to NC was one of the greatest decisions I've made all my life. When I think about it, it may have been the ONLY smart thing I've done for myself. My future is bright and I'm ready.



My adopting family



Breaking the Silence

Every time I sit down and try to blog, my mind draws a blank. I have so many things to say, yet I can’t put them into words. So many things have changed; so many things are continuing to change. I look in the mirror and smile more these days for several different reasons. I hope this is a good thing, but why you say? I know it sounds like that should be great but right now, I’m not so sure.

I have a story to tell also, but I haven’t reached my goal quite yet, so until then I will keep it to myself. Look for it though because I’m close to reaching my goal and that for sure is something to be happy about.

I guess I’m here to break my silence but not saying much of anything….

To be continued….

The Perry-Crowder Crew

Kaliyah,5    Sammy,8       Braylon,4

*Per Mother children's identity can be revealed (click here to read story)

My Journey: The Countdown Begins...

I am uber excited! In 23 days I will be signing the the lease to my very own apartment! If no one else is proud of me, I am proud of myself. I came to NC on a mission and things are working out for me perfectly.

I am employed with two jobs within a month of arriving here, 5 months and I am ready to move in my own crib. The feeling is great because at first I didn't know if things would go like I planned but over all things are great. I am very thankful for the help of Lorie, without her I would not be able to make this new start. Thank you Lorie!  

I am going to miss the little ones, Sammy, (8) has tried to kick me out with the constant question of when Im going home. Kaliyah, (5) constantly questions my actions and tells me what I need to do. I'm always asking "are you my momma?" LOL  Its cute though, she does it just like her momma does her. She is my little shadow, she looks at me like the other girl when her brothers are doing "boy things" and annoying her. Braylon, (4).... what can I say, I have been a victim of his scorpio stinger several times. He kicks me out, we can't have a decent convo without it ending with me possibly having pie in my face, and just when I am about to write his lil ass off he comes with the "Ms. Nette, I love you!"  Then I all "awwww" lol. *thanks God he is only 4* I'd be a sucker for that ish! Beware parents of 4yr old girls!

                                            *The Kids

Over all it's bittersweet :-/. Im gonna miss the PCR crew!

*These are not Lorie's kids, these are Micheal Jackson's kids as to protect the childrens identity

Friday, Feb 5th
Per Mother children's identity can be revealed (click her to view picture)

1st Night Out To A Club

More Pics to come.........

My Journey: The Move

Oct. 4th I packed up my car and I headed north. I have always wanted to be successful and I was at a dead end in my present life. I graduated high school when I was 17, I started college and got my Associates Degree in Business. My first job was at a KFC and I have been able to work my way up the corporate ladder and that I have always been proud of. Each job better with a better pay.

The 6months leading up to that day I felt lost with no one to turn to. This was the first time in my life where I didn't feel like I was making progress. If anything, I was beginning to settle for mediocrity and that is not me. I was beginning to be satisfied with being miserable. I had in my mind that things would get better or work themselves out. For any "go getta" in life, you know this is not the case.

I began to see why people never achieve their goals in life. I'm an emotional person and if I continued down that road, my emotions would have overcome me. Flash Forward I saw myself 45yrs old still in my mother's house. My only company the cat Goldie, just like a lil old lady. (I'm watching Flash Forward lol)

I don't want to be that person who had so much potential in life and let it slip away, I'm NOT going to be that person. A month later and things are looking up. I am progressing like I have been all my life. It feels good to be back on the right path. I don't know about anyone else but failure is not an option for me.